everything thats on my mind.

So I haven’t vented on here about what happened at my dads court day on Thursday… So here it goes… All of Wednesday night I couldn’t sleep well cause of my nerves… So when I got to the court house with my brother… I looked fine on the outside but my mind was taking over and I was so anxious. And while we were just sitting there waiting we found out that the “family” was there… And when I found that out I was furious!! I couldn’t believe they had the fucking balls to be there! And to top it off… The bitches real dad all of a sudden popped back into her life and was also there… So the other family had about probably 5 people… And my family had about 20 people that love and support my family. When I crossed passed with the little girl(idk if that’s the proper word to describe this little 13 year old whore) my heart was beating fast and I just wanted to go up to her and slam her head against the wall… Yes I have a lot of anger towards her and her family for putting my family through all this bullshit for almost 2 years now. So when we finally went inside the court room the judge seemed like she was in a good mood… Turns out she wasn’t and it sucks how the system works… It really fucking sucks how a persons life is in the hands of a stranger. And this day felt just like the day when my dad was found guilty.
So since the day we found that out what my family did was ask my family and family close friends for character letters describing my dad and I read all of them and I really thought all those letters would help my dads sentencing but it ended up fucking making things worst… The letters described my dad from when he started selling fruit when he was a young teen to where he is now owning his own trucking company, being happily married to my mom for 29 years, always being caring and thinking of others, trustworthy and had a smile that could cheer up anyones day. All these things are true about my dad. And so finally the judge started talking about how my dad has no prior history blah blah next thing I know she’s talking about how these characteristics have nothing to do with this case and she has to do it the judicial way with all the laws because of what he is being accused of… And how probation is out of the question :/ so after hearing her say these things my heart dropped and I knew it was all bad after that… And next thing I know she’s saying 8 years for my dads bigger accusation and 2 for the lesser… 10 fucking years in jail and register for life as a sex offender all for something he didn’t do… All because a stupid little girl made up a lie and went after the guy who tried to be a father figure to her after not having a dad and misinterpreting everything my dad and my family did for her and her family… Once I considered them family now they are nobody to me and they have nobody to lean on because my dads family all knows how that family is and hates there guts like we do!
After the judge said that I did something I wouldn’t normally do… I looked at the little bitch and her sister across the room and see them laughing… Im just thinking Wow who laughs at something like that.. If this whole situation was true they would be crying tears of joy not laughing so that really pissed me off even more and i said “you fucking bitch hope you rot in hell” and I know for a fact they read my lips. I just really wanted to get up and beat the shit out of them… So I tried controlling those emotions and Next thing i knew i started balling cause I couldn’t believe 10 years with out my dad and my nieces won’t see there papa :/ this whole situation just sucks it really does and feels so unreal :/ and seeing my mom a mess sucks :( but I must try and stay strong for my mom and my family… Sorry if this got a little long I didn’t think it was going to be this long but I just want to say thanks for those of you who care about me and always check up on me randomly… I love you all